Blog – Page 18

February 3 2017

the battle

susangayhart Poetry anxiety, battle, clinical depression, demons, depressed, depression, depression signals, emotional battle, fearful, grief, help, hopeful, Major Depressive Disorder, mental health, mental illness, physical battle, running, suicidal depression, suicide prevention, treatment resistant depression, winning

The clouds are dark but I don’t care I find myself dancing, dancing around in the rain and smelling the fresh air I close my blue eyes with so much to fear the fear of all those ugly demons that are living so near I discover I’m at battle in a war I can’t possibly […]

February 1 2017

on the outskirts

susangayhart Blog alone, antidepressants, anxiety, Ashton Manual, Benzodiazepines, clinical depression, day before ketamine, depressed, depression, depression signals, desire, effects without ketamine, emotions, friendships, grief, insight, insomnia, ketamine, ketamine day, ketamine shots, mental health, observing, suidical depression, symptoms, treatment resistant depression, treatments

Hello again. This is Susan from myketaminestory.com. I made it to Ketamine day. I have been on the outskirts of depression the past couple days. I am actually surprise that the depression filters have not been switch on yet. It is like a force field. I can feel it radiating towards me but it looks […]

February 1 2017

please

susangayhart Poetry alone, clinical depression, depressed, depression, depression signals, effects without ketamine, emotions, evil, faith, insight, lonely, longing, Major Depressive Disorder, mental health, mental illness, sadness, suicidal depression, suicide, treatment resistant depression

Death it will feel so good to me open the door Lord, and please let me in I have been pounding my head against the gate for so long now why won’t you just let me In? I cry to you, oh Lord please let me in but I can’t make out your reply through […]

January 31 2017

my body is my canvas

susangayhart Blog anxiety, art, body art, ketamine, Major Depressive Disorder, mental health, mental illness, project semicolon, semicolon movement, suicidal depression, suicide, suicide prevention, tattoo, treatment resistant depression

Hello again. This is Susan from myketaminestory.com. I have been dying to share this story since I decided to develop this website. It was back in September of 2016, well I had been thinking about it months before I approached my family, I asked my husband, son, and his girlfriend to participate in the semicolon […]

January 30 2017

i’m finally there

susangayhart Poetry Buddhist, Buddhist Monk, emotions, hope, insight, meditation, mindful, monk, observing, peace, self aware

My sanctuary.. I can go there any time in my minds eye or a trip, willing I’ll travel far leading me to my safe haven The closer I get to the lighthouse the more the ocean beckons to me. I am almost there. All my senses are now wide awake pleasure and alive inside The […]

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