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January 26 2017

just another cocktail

susangayhart Blog antidepressants, anxiety, Ashton Manual, Ativan, Benzodiazepines, clinical depression, depressed, family, hope, insomnia, ketamine, ketamine day, ketamine effects, ketamine shots, Klonopin, Major Depressive Disorder, mental illness, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, semicolon movement, suicide, suicide prevention, suidical depression, tattoos, treatment resistant depression

Hello again. This is Susan from myketaminestory.com. It has been a few days since my last blog. I am disappointed in myself, but only a little bit. I have not been putting my thoughts down. However, I have been able to get all the layouts and background work completed on my website; I am sure […]

January 26 2017

little box

susangayhart Poetry alone, crying, depressed, desire, emotions, help, hope, insomnia, lonely, longing, self aware

My life is like being in a box that’s to small, way too small I want to get out desperately but I can’t find an opening and I can only hold my breath for so long No! there seems to be no one around for me I can see, I can touch inside my […]

January 26 2017

opposite end

susangayhart Poetry alone, depressed, depression signals, desire, friendships, lonely, longing, playground, sadness, seesaw, suicidal depression, swings, symptoms

As a little girl I’d go to the park never thinking never caring wearing only what was allowed to me I’d always run to the see saws for they were the best I’d glance at the opposite end no one to lift no friends to share it with I’d stroll to the swings knowing that […]

January 22 2017

searching for balance

susangayhart Home antidepressants, anxiety, clinical depression, effects without ketamine, emotions, grief, help, hope, hospitalizations, insight, ketamine, ketamine shots, Major Depressive Disorder, mental health, mental illness, treatment resistant depression, treatments

Hello again. I am painfully discovering that having treatment resistant depression for decades kept me from experiencing life fully. I was drowning under an dark vast ocean invisible to everyone but me. My world has always been plagued by this undeniable feeling that I was different. I believe that I didn’t see the world the […]

January 20 2017

painting a story

susangayhart Home antidepressants, anxiety, depressed, depression, effects without ketamine, ketamine, ketamine infusions, ketamine shots, mental health, suicidal depression, suicide prevention, treatment resistant depression

Hello again. I am working behind the scenes on the website and slowly it is coming together. I spent the day organizing data I have to share. I discovered several journals I kept during the two years leading up to my being told about Ketamine. It is heartbreaking to read and remember. It is still so […]

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